I feel like
there's so much love
I have no one
to share it with.
And that's sad.
Thursday, February 26, 2015
Friday, February 13, 2015
"I was sad because I found what I was looking for in you E. I'm sad because it didn't work out."
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The problem with my previous relationships was that I centered my life around them. I'd get alarmed by the littlest of things and the simplest gestures my partner extends to others were enough to blaze raging fires of jealousy within me. Insecurity, unfortunately, became my national anthem.
After reading an online article this week though, I've come to realize that my previous temperament/disposition just wasn't right. I realize that all this time, I was barking at the wrong tree. I kept blaming people for all the pain and depression and desolation and distress that I carry inside me, but it was me all along - this dark abyss of emotional instability that caused the ruin of my previous relationships.
Relationships should not make people feel whole. Completing ourselves, by ourselves, is an integral prerequisite before jumping in on any romantic bandwagon. It is our duty to love ourselves first, to enjoy solitude, and to actually feel complete even when we're all alone. It is only then that we can love others better, be better, and forge better relationships.
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Love should be kind. Love should be patient. Love trusts. Love has no room for pride. Love frees people from the bondage of everyday. If the love you're feeling now is hurting you inside, hurting others, or preventing people from experiencing freedom, then maybe it isn't true. Take time to contemplate. Maybe you need to fix yourself first.